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[agyieus]

hey. you wanna talk?

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About what?

[agyieus]

whatever it is you want to say to me

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I never would have been able to change your mind on anything anyway

[agyieus]

that doesn’t mean we can’t talk about it

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I don't want to fight

[agyieus]

i don’t know. maybe we should.

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I think it'll make things feel worse

[agyieus]

things already suck.

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Yeah, they do

[agyieus]

so is there something i can do to get right with you?

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I don't know. How would you have felt if we'd been able to volunteer?

[agyieus]

i’d have been scared, but [...] it’s hard to explain how much having this thing in my head fucks with my mind. just. psychologically, i mean.

maybe if it was just you and i didn’t know what it was like i wouldn’t get it either. but i’d cut it out with a knife myself if i could.

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I hate that you have it in there. I hate that we couldn't stop it from happening to you

[agyieus]

i'm glad it was me. [...] if it had to be one of us.

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It shouldn't have been any of us. I can't be glad about that

[agyieus]

yeah.

[...] you know sloane is basically a stranger to me even though we were together for six months. it's kind of nice to get to know her now. [...] maybe i just need to get to know you again. i'm different now th

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That's different

[agyieus]

kind of. i feel like i need to [...] figure everything out all over again. i don't know.

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But it's [...] I'm sorry if we're making it harder

[agyieus]

it’s not that you’re making it harder. [...] i guess my point about sloane was that even if i like the person i’m getting to know now, part of me is always going to expect her to be the person i knew when we were veiled. and i can’t fully trust that she won’t be expecting me to be the person she knew before, too. but i’m not that person anymore and i can’t be him ever again. do you get that?

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You can't ever be the person we knew before again too

[agyieus]

yeah. [...] i feel like letting you down is the only thing i know how to do anymore.

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That's not true

[agyieus]

you asked me to tell you about what i’m feeling. you didn’t ask me to tell you the truth.